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Thankful For You and My Journey

Wholehearted living is a life long journey ♡
A dear friend reminded me last night that he has seen the chapters of my life/my journey of the last 15 years, and with this conversation I was reminded that without the roller coaster that has been my life I wouldn't be the women I am today; no matter whom loves me, accepts me, judges me. The me today is a much wiser & stronger me than the Sam that moved to Breckenridge over 16 years ago. And I am excited to see where this journey continues to take me; even with the dips and backwards steps I know will come along the way.
To all of you,
I have so much love for you all! I hope one day you will all find some self acceptance, love, and respect, and in turn a little more happiness & peace ♡♡♡
Love & Strength To You All!
I am so very thankful for each and every one of you ♡ xoxo
Until next time friends,
Live. Laugh. Love.

My Heart is Torn...


Chicken Tortilla Soup

Ok, Chicken Tortilla Soup; my way :-) ...or at least for today ;-) For stock you can make yours from scratch (chicken, carrots, onion, celery, garlic, basil, salt, pepper), or a mix of scratch and store bought broth, or just store bought broth (I use equal amounts of water). Today I used a mixture.
I had 1/2 a container of organic vegetable broth, and a full container of organic chicken broth.
I then used approximately 6 cups of water, and added the remains of our rotisserie chicken from dinner the other night.
From here: an onion, 1 tbsp minced garlic, couple of handfuls of baby carrots, and a (sliced) lime, and approximately 1 tbsp basil.
I brought this mixture to a boil, and then simmered until the meat fell off the bone.
Next I removed all the bones and the rinds from the lime.
Now comes the "Tortilla" part of the soup.
1 can of diced tomatoes
2 cans of black beans
1 can of mushrooms
1 bag of frozen cornSeasonings I add per taste... I can give you what I approximately…

Veterans Day

I always feel a little weird around the holidays that celebrate veterans and the like as 50% of me is German... as in we were on the enemy side during WWII. My Opa (his brothers, and my Oma's brother) were Veterans on the German side; Only 2 brothers came home from that war.
My Opa hated having to fight that war so much so he purposely disobeyed (Hitler's) orders, went AWOL, etc, and was supposed to be on "the chopping block" numerous times. Due to the need for people to serve the chopping block never happened, instead they continually demoted my Opa. By the end of his service he was working in the engine room on the bottom of the Tirpitz. The Tirpitz was a battleship that was hit and flipped over. My Opa was miraculously rescued from the now over turned battleship, but he almost died that day.
This is the Veteran I love & miss every day of my life. I was the only girl out of the grandkids; I was spoiled by my Opa, to say the least. Even when he didn't u…

Working through emotions

Over the years I have learned that to truly move through emotions you must acknowledge them and then accept them for what they are.With that said, this is what I am working through emotionally at the moment...Realizing someone I was in love with for years was not the person I thought... I was in love with the person he made me believe he was by fluffing the truth. As well the realization that being with him hurt me as much as the jerks he threatened to kill if they hurt me...  My heart hurts... this was supposed to be not only a lover, but one of my best friends... it is a grieving process... Our Colorado community has been dealing with a lot of loss/deaths in the last couple months... the one hitting home for me was losing our friend Shane to suicide. I may not have been as close to him as others, but he was always someone that had a hug & smile for me, and accepted me. It is hard working through the personal issues I have with suicide, and then also to loose someone so loved by …

PLEASE do not give up!!!

This post is in honor of an amazing individual that the world lost this past weekend. PLEASE do not give up!!!I do not want to preach about why one should keep fighting. Rather I will share my story...In my almost 35 years I have been through hell and back. To be completely honest, I can only say I am lucky (and thankful) to be alive.To try and make a novel into a short story, things started when I was a child.
Already introverted, shy, the kid who was picked on, etc, etc, my neighbors older brother decided teaching me how mommy's & daddy's make babies would be a good idea. This was the beginning of my downward spiral. Add hormones in at puberty and POOF you have the perfect storm.
I was diagnosed Bipolar 1 with suicidal, psychotic, and OCD tendancies by the time I was 15. I was also concurrently diagnosed with PTSD, Social & Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Anorexia/Bulimia.
(I have since dropped the suicidal & psychotic tendancies, as well as the eating disor…

Long Distance

some quotes for those whom chose long distance romances...“The scariest thing about distance is you don’t know if they’ll miss you or forget about you.”  —Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook"Contrary to what the cynics say, distance is not for the fearful; it's for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love." —Meghan Daum"And ever has it been known that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation." —Khalil Gibran"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell." —Edna St. Vincent Millay"This is the sad bed of chosen chastity because you are miles and mountains away." —Erica Jong"I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal." —Vita Sackville-West"Waiting does not bother me, nor doe…